ill

i illness almost one week. i hate to take medicine, because some medicine is quite bitter and some have a bad smell. medicine for me is like push me to the hell is very suffer! but this time very serious, and also is my first time. HEADACHE+FLU+ULCER+SORE THROAT+ MENSTRUAL=SUFFER

 yup...this medicine is my mom bought for me yesterday. this medicine is quite famous, and i like the smell it like herbal. no bitter, no bad smell.PASS :D

my mom keep on remind me, take this before sleep, it can help me sleep well. contrary, after i take this i whole night can't sleep. OMG,I'M INSOMNIA! 12:13AM i go to sleep but i don't feel any sleepy. i try to sleep, but also fail. i try to count sheep because when pronounce sheep is like sleep, so i try but i doesn't work!wow~i think i full of stamina can count sheep in the middle night, it is a quite lame hypnosis game.

i miss him badly in a sudden. i talking to myself, at the moment i was like idiot. why i keep on talking to myself? why i suddenly miss him? at the moment, i want his hug badly but can't! i can't meet him! i can't miss him! when meet him i will get hurt, maybe he will so better don't want meet.

sometime i always think. at one time,we ambiguous, hug, kiss but inside got love? i'm really confuse, do you love me once? no matter how, i want try to stop the complicated relationship.

CHEER GIRL, YOU CAN DO IT!

    TRUST YOURSELF!  

一个人的电影

今天我终于有勇气去完成我一直想要做的事了---一个人的电影。我想我这么做大概是想证明什么吧，不知道也许是也许不是。今天的我真的有点糟糕，就连一张戏票也会买错。我到底在想什么？没办法了，一定要找个朋友打发时间。我也很自然的找上了她，因为他的家最近戏院。

去她家的路途，我真的很犹豫不定，心里一直想，‘怎么办，真的要找她吗？’算了！既然已经告诉她了，去就是了，别想那么多。终于到了，不用犹豫了，就进去吧。大概是在家没事干吧。我们像以前一样骑着摩托到处绕，但我们的话题不再是对方的心事了而是讨论屋子的大小，豪华，居住的人。我想这是我的个人问题吧。

绕着，绕着，感觉到累了就回家。回到家，我们坐下来看戏。突然，她的电话响了，她让我知道是谁打给她。在那一瞬间，我真的真的有种说不出的刺痛。对！是那个‘他’拨电给她了，那个‘他’想约她去宵夜，她当时拒绝了。拒绝的原因大概是我在吧。但那个‘他’还不断的提出另一个时间，还问她为什么声音有点变了，为什么下午没接‘他’的电话。在一旁的我，只有一直假惺惺的装不在乎。

终于，他挂了电话。过后，我要求她开门给我，原因不是因为那个电话，而是我真的要去看戏了。希望她不要误会。上车后，我真的不知该怎么办，眼泪为什么不会流？是因为我不再乎了吗？还是因为我变得比以前坚强了？变得比以前不容易流泪了？到底我怎么了？

到了戏院，我在想到底是我倒霉还是幸运？我的戏刚好在四号房，F-11。这是我和你第一次看戏的房间和位子。今天在那个位子上以往的快乐，废话甚至体温都消失了，留下的只有回忆。每一个人的回忆有快乐与不快乐，但我可以清楚知道这位子对我的回忆是快乐的。

终于，一个人的电影结束了。MIB3的确是个不错的电影。但我倒霉的一天还没结束，去厕所途中我发现我鞋子的装饰掉了。心情不那么好的我也没心情找它了，只有狼狈的，匆匆忙忙的回到车上。

一个人的电影，让我更了解自己。原来，我是一个怕孤单的人，原来我是一个不那么勇敢的人，原来我是那么的懦弱。原来没有朋友的陪伴我会觉得那么的无助，那么的害怕。

YOU

I've know you almost five year,but our relationship is complicated. Previously,you often call me and talk about your sadness and also happy matters. I'm glad be your listener. BUT, pardon me. I'm just treat you as my best friend because i am fall in love to a guy same school with me. I also don't know why i love that guy, maybe he handsome, clever or else at that time with my taste.

After i know you almost two year more i fall in love with you.But you in the relationship with a girl when you working at KL. That girl is older than you, maybe is your type at that time. In the originally, i don't know why you ain't call me, is your neighbor, my friend let me know you are in the relationship with a girl older than you. I would like OMG. Isn't the god kidding me? Why when i fall in love with you but you in the relationship. I really.....sigh~

I'll think it over, i fall in love with you yet? can i forget you easily? or i want let you know? The answer is NO...NO...NO!!! That's not his fault is yours!!! please don't blame on him...!!! All is the timing...the timing we know each other is wrong! the timing he love me is wrong! the timing i love him is wrong! ALL WRONG!!! GOD NO BLESS ME!!!

Sometime our relationship like friend, but sometime we like over friendship. Because you, i really suffer. Everyday think of you, the matters we happened, the sadness, happy and also........ Sometime i think isn't our relationship complicated is because our home very near? I can easily find a person accompany me? i can easily find a person be my driver? i can easily find a person help me? i don't know, maybe this is the reason to explain it...!!!    

This year we've many first time. I first time spent Christmas eve with you and my secondary school classmate. first time met my classmate. they said you are polite guy, although no join us but will say goodbye to them when leave. first time movie with you. first time having supper with you at MacDonald. you first time hug me. we first time interdigitate. i first time give you goodbye kiss. all this will be my sweet memory with you. i won't forget it. i try to forget once, but very hard so all this better be my sweet memory.

Seriously, i like the time spent with you. i like the place with you.i like the moment with you. i like the conversation with you. i like everything about you. i think you are the guy i will not forget forever, although we are incomprehension each other.

ME GUSTA

  

   

mother's day

母亲节快乐。。。^^

祝天下的妈妈

身体健康，永远美丽

  

对妈妈说了母亲节快乐了吗？

快快对妈妈说吧

我也还没告诉她呢

可能这句话太客套了吧

不适合我们

：D

妈，

我已经长大了，

不用太担心我啦

我会好好照顾自己

我会把我这条路走好，走完

不会让你失望

虽然现在爸爸不在了

但是我们还是很爱你的啦

不用担心，不用担心

：）

你似乎对今天的晚餐不是很满意

对吧？

但没关系啦

下次不要吃那间就好啦

不要怨了啦

 tadaa

这就是我妈

有像吗？

：D

这是我这么大以来和她的第一张合照

因为我妈她不是很喜欢拍照

所以这就第一张咯

有时我们想姐妹

有时我妈像严母

但，现在我们都大了

她也比较像慈母啦

妈，你要

健健康康的

漂漂亮亮的

虽然时常吵架

尤其是你的二儿子

但，

我们会爱你一辈子的啦

forget

YUP
i like you, i miss you, i love you
your one call or one message, i can happy whole day
at the same time
your one reject, i also can emo whole day
because you i tears fall
because you i drunk

BUT NOW
because you i want call back myself
i want to be the previous me
the happy nebubune

because you i want change myself
i want be more pretty than now
i want be more fair than now
i want be more clever than now
 
because you i want be tough
i won't waste my tears anymore 
i won't drunk anymore

NOW
i no need your answer anymore
i think i know what answer you will give me

AND, I KNOW
i'm not a patient girl
i'm not a careful girl
i'm not a fine girl
i'm not a kind girl
i'm not a polite girl

i know i'm not your type
so i won't waiting your answer anymore
i'm not from love you to hate you
is because i know what is happened

if you love my best friend, i can accept it
but please treat her as good as you can
please don't try to hurt her

i also will try to forget you

forget the feel you give me

forget the happy you give me

 forget the happiness you give me

forget the sadness you give me

forget the bruise you give me

 

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foundation graduation

YEAH...^^

finally my happy mood came back

haiz~my foundation graduation almost two week

but this two week many unlucky events around me

make me very suffer!!!

all sad is gone now i want be happy...^^

in my first year college life got four type of taste

that is sweet, sour, bitter and spicy

this all make me be more mature

and i also know what mean is

''don't always blame what you don't have, 

but please appreciate what you have now''

meaningful, right?

in my college life i've know a gang of friend

in the gang got 6 girl and 2 boys

ya...is they

but pity,jie jie back home jor... :（

this is our jie jie

see,her sexy face

flower?

ya...we try to be a flower

lol~

they are the 2 boys in our gang

actually they are 'gay'

no la...just a joke :D

this two is most clever in our gang

i want say thank you to both of them

thank you both of you teach me everything that i don't know

thank you very much

they are most fashion in our gang

one is our jie jie, and one is my babe sista

jie jie thank you always fetch us to having brunch 

she is my roommate also is my coursemate

she also is my babe sista classmate in primary school

so i know her

sometime we like good friend, but sometime we like enemy

very funny,right?

he is not our gang :D

he is april intake, but we are may intake

see he shorter than me, actually we are same height

LOL

 he also april intake, he is the best friend with the guy who is april intake :P

he very handsome, right?

ya...he is the guy i like once

see, between us got a small gap

why?maybe we are shy :D

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i'm extremely grateful to her

because her i know this college

because her i know this gang of friend

because her i'm from black change to white

i mean my complexion

because her i'm become more pretty than before

because her i'm become more clever

i mean on language

because her i first time get surprise on my birthday

and the surprise not only one is twice

her birthday i try to give her surprise but fail

SORRY

so many because is can't use the word to express

thank you very very much

she is my classmate in secondary school

and also my course mate in college

and also my roommate in college life

and now she is my babe sista

ya...is you

 COEBE

the person who know me more

thank you very much <3

 

 

a nice day

today such a nice day

happy come,emo gone...^^

although very tired, but very happy 

First time drive manual car to KL...Wow~quite nervous and excited...when drive at highway is very easy, but when at normal road got many car and traffic... OMG!!! is time to break...i hate the moment when BREAK, at the same time want engaged the clutch...!!! it very exhausting for my leg...

today is my first time when parking the car want START four time...OMG!!! driving skill fail...fail...fail..!!! and my sista keep laughing aside...very 'fish' lo...hahahaaaa~

actually we go to KL is to find college about the design...wow~that college she want to go is quite difficult to find and the parking also full, really no parking lo...we keep round and round and round, finally we get the parking...

ya...''dasien academy of art'', the college she want...the counselor there is damn good...you want Chinese,he can speak chinese; you want English,he can say english; you want Malay,he also can speak malay... very good,right? Haiz~pity on her Malay get fail, so must to resit is because the certificate... at the same time, she can study there and must to resit the malay and the result must pass before she end her diploma...is a quite good college... here,i want wish you 'ah mem' can pass your malay paper and be a popular designer...GAMBATEH

today i'm really really happy...^^ first time ice skating...it very excitement!!!

this is me...

see i'm like crayon sin chan,right?

ya...is because my eyebrows just touch up...

 my sista,who are same date of birth with me...

looking another side,she very shy ya...lol~

 our ticket...^^

PITY!!!

forget take photo with her

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buy again~all about face and body...

ya...this is my conquest

all is came from DEAD SEA

this is sample

try..try..try..^^

today i really happy... never miss him, but when i update this blog i miss him again because at the middle night very quiet... :'(

  

  

suffer

I hate the moment when i wake up because when i wake up i will always try to sleep again but can't asleep...!!! I don't want!!! I don't want wake up!!!when i wake up i always think about you...think about that night...!!! I don't know why... You really make me suffer!!! Isn't the decision i make is wrong... Isn't i should not ask you???

I don't know...maybe that is wrong!!! At the beginning to the end you never understand me... I want ask you that question not because the few day we are together not because i love the moment when with you is because i already like you for a time!!! only you don't know about this...

you don't know i use almost one week to make the decision...you don't know i want rush back to KD is because you, i scare i will date you if i at seremban...you don't know i get drunk is because you, just a half pint i very hard...you don't know all about this...!!!

That night i really don't know how to ask you...why u don't take it serious when i want ask you... after i don't want ask why you keep on ask me the pointless question!!! When i said serious please don't take it is a joke...it very hurt!!!

Finally you know i am angry, you know i wanna cry but sorry i already no mood to ask you that question...you try to hold my hand,you try to hug me tight,you try to ask me isn't i want ask you,you love me or not? but at the same time i try to escape,i try to push you away from me...i'm very fatigue, seriously!!!

when you kiss me,i don't have any feeling...I don't know why...Who can tell me why...Maybe as my sista said,is because i already fed up so i can't felt my heartbeat violently...!!! ya...that is my first kiss...a kiss without any feeling... i push you not because i hate yours behave is because without any feeling...

finally, we calm down...you keep on say sorry, i just at aside...i don't know what response i can give you...when you get out from the car you just say give you some time...i don't know why...maybe this 'time' can give us to consideration isn't we are love each other...or maybe this 'time' can give me to consideration isn't you are the mr.right

Give me a answer,please!!! i'm very suffer!!! i get hurt better than i am waiting your answer... I am aries, when i get hurt i can use the shorter time to cure...no worries...i just want a answer...!!!

i will not forget this night 4/5/2012 

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